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Anggap saja kita berdua berjalan menuju selamanya Bertiga dengan botol anggur Berempat dengan puisi Dan selamanya itu terasa lama sekali Mungkin seperti selama 26 tahun saat umurku baru 25 Yang tiba-tiba menjadi 26 Lalu kau curi kecup dari pandang ibu. Padahal ibu tahu, Sebab itu ibu diam-diam meninggalkanmu Supaya kau bisa menyisipkan peluk tanpa malu-malu Kau tahu? kadang kelopak mata tertidur dengan kalap, dan kau tak bisa membedakannya dengan lelap.

Oh I wish you were red wine, so I could take one anytime I want. Too bad you were not wine, and I couldn't take you anytime I want. But could you pretend like you are mine? Till we forget that it's just because of the wine.

His argument is more stunning than what I wrote here, I can't remember all, this is what I remember, and I am amazed until now. Never think the soul as the energy before. --- What lies after death? Why you ask? Nothing, it just across my mind. Are you afraid of death? Nope, I feel more afraid to the pain that we gonna feel before death, not the death itself. I won't mind to die right now if I don't need to feel the pain. Sooner or later I'll be dead anyway. Then I'll find out where we going after this. I don't believe in heaven and hell. So, what you believe in after life? Where are we going to go after life? What is "we"? We? I mean, me, or you. What is "you"? Yeah, you, yourself. I know, I mean how you describe you, describe self. You, the body and the soul. There’s a famous psychological story. Once upon a time live a guy (he mentions the name but I can't remember). He once h

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*2 kids are crying and screaming* R: Children are cute only when they are not yours. M: Haha… You don’t say! R: Any kids? M: Nope, no kids, no wife, still think that 37 years old is too young for marriage. R: I never particularly think about married, the hell with 25 years old girl trapped in marriage life. But almost all my high school friends are already married, also some of my uni friends. I’m not against them, it’s a choice, every individual have a different life, we can’t compare decision, can’t compare life. I just simply never think about it. M: Sure, neither do I. I never set plan about married or to have children. It will be good if I have children, as well as have no children. I can set goal about career, but not about children or marriage. R: Any little kids around you? Nephew? M: My nephew is already 18 years old. R: I see. How does it feel to be 37 mature guy? M: Haha… Why you ask? R: I just want to know. 25 is good,

Apa yang bisa menyelamatkan diri dari malam-malam penuh amarah, seperti kematian yang memanggil-manggil anak muda di jalanan? Pada selokan yang menguapkan busuk. Pada kerinduan yang tak pernah khatam. Pada ribuan matahari yang terlewat dalam rongsokan bis kota. Seumpama semesta udara yang satu-satu melintasi cuping telinga          motor tua yang berjuang di antara karat dan bau usia          dan akhirnya senja yang begitu indah pun begitu cepat tiada. Lalu aku menyumpahi gelisah menyumpahi pipi yang basah dan memori yang terus diasah          Soal hangat dan baumu          yang ingin kubuang jauh-jauh Aku tak pernah tak menyukaimu Tapi aku juga tak pernah berkata hanya menyukaimu seorang